Imperfections.

2011-10-25T08:31:00.001-07:00

just one and it's done

2011-10-25T08:18:00.001-07:00

maybe i should just die.

2011-10-09T11:24:00.001-07:00

Hurt and fucking pissed off.

Love is when i see happiness through his eyes.

2011-03-17T10:18:00.001-07:00

Faiz Radzwin,
you brought me more happiness and showed me the true meaning of love. You picked me up and ignited the feelings i had for you long ago. I never knew i would be with someone like you. Someone so amazing. Everyday, i feel like i am the luckiest girl on earth and i still do feel that way. You never failed to make me smile even with the lamest joke :) you listen to me when i'm ranting abt anything, and you were always there when i needed you. You have a smile that could turn a rainy day into a sunny day. Your laugh is so contagious :D have i ever told you that you have an adorable way of rubbing your eyes?.. :p like i just wanna hug you soo tight and tell you i love you. Baby, i knw 'm not perfect. I hope you love me the way i am, because i can only be myself when im with you. I love you Faiz Radzwin <3

2010-11-30T04:28:00.000-08:00

i know my opinions don't matter. when will it actually matter?

2010-10-30T01:47:00.001-07:00

Let me in.

2010-10-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

Courage;

to face danger, stand up for what we know is right or believe in and to act accordingly. It makes us become authentic witnesses of Christ in the world.

2010-10-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

love him so so much <3

2010-09-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

sometimes I can't take this shit anymore.

I FUCKING HATE TO LIE.

i dont like hiding things from anyone.

no one understands how i feel.

no one

2010-09-03T00:48:00.000-07:00

I wanna show you that my love is pure
Oh my baby see I ask for nothing more
I wanna show you that my love is for real
Oh pretty girl what gave you the right to steal
My heart, it's in your hands
Oh your beauty occupies all of my land
Well I am, yes sir, just a man in love

Now that I've found you well I know I'm never ever alone
No need for letters, No need to call you on telephones
You occupy my mind every single day and night
Spread like wild fire
People tell me I'm a crazy fool
If I'm possessed then what is there to do
You're my queen, prettier than the girls in magazines
You make Cupid cry

And I would lay down and die
For one glimpse of those open eyes
How am I to describe
The one who holds the Sun's Fire

Well I've tasted 31 flavors
Seen the world and all it's neighbors
But I tell you nothing is as sweet
As the feeling I get inside when I look into those eyes
You choke me up inside and I can't breath
Tell me what is it I can do
Just to prove my love to you
Tell me how many songs that I must sing
Before I can see you in your glory
Hear your whole entire story
Bathe inside your golden golden sea
Oh I tell you you're my queen

My eyes are blind
All I can find
Is your love in me
Oh I tell you you're my queen

I am hypnotized
Oh you got me
You got me drowning in your sea

2010-08-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...
Sepi tanpa kata
Terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
Apa pun kata mereka
Biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi... pergi...
Kau pergi... pergi...
Pergi...

2010-08-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

2010-08-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

things arent the same when youre not here.

before i met you i live a mundane life.

you came and coloured my life :)

you made me happier. :D

you know the true me, you know everything about me.

you know how i react to certain things,

you know how to make me smile, laugh.

you mean the whole universe to me baby :)

2010-07-07T05:21:00.000-07:00

2010-07-02T07:16:00.001-07:00

I can stand with the weight of the world
On my shoulders
I can fight with the toughest of the tough
I can laugh in the face
Of all my insecurities
Anytime, anywhere, anything
I'm strong enough
But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love.

2010-06-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

2010-06-03T02:57:00.000-07:00

Kate Voegele
before she was famous.

2010-05-21T20:09:00.000-07:00

i wish things would be like it was before. i've gotta make life worth living, gotta go with the flow. forget about the past, take it like a man. it's easier said than done.

Get To you.

So close to midnight
Under the streetlights
Leaving behind what I don’t need

I’ve walked like a blind man
And my eyes are open
And You are the only place for me

Won’t you hold on just for a while
Please don’t give up on me tonight

Coz I’m on my way
I chased the day
Yeah I’ll keep running all night

I just won’t rest to catch my breath
I will run every red light

To get to you
No I will get to you
No I will get to you

I’ll chase past the tail lights
Head for the skyline
Hoping that, that won’t change your faith

I see them appearing
The cracks in the pavement
Running I pray I’m not too late

Won’t you hold just for a while
Please
Please don’t give up on me tonight

Coz I’m on my way
I’ll chase the day
Yeah I’ll keep running all night

I just won’t rest to catch my breath
I will run every red light

To get to you
No I will get to you
No I will get to you
I will

I’ll get to you
Just hold on a little longer
I’ll get to you
Oh just don’t give up on me
I will get to
I will get to
I will get to you

Coz I’m on my way
I chased the day
Yeah I’ll keep running all night

Just won’t rest to catch my breath
I will run every red light

To get to you
No I will get to you
No I will get to you
I will

I will get to
I will get to
I will get to you

2010-05-14T19:03:00.000-07:00

Beautiful things i can never show the world.

2010-04-20T04:00:00.001-07:00

Love without holding back. :)

2010-04-18T10:20:00.001-07:00

you make me feel like i should be a bitch.

2010-04-18T10:12:00.000-07:00

no one truly understands.
they only care when they need something from you.
its been pretty long since i've felt pure happiness.
never expect too much from someone.
you try to go with the flow, but you realise you have to understand how others feel.
and then you realise you can't read minds.
but they're not telling you how they feel.
and you're confused.
you dont know what to do, you just dont care and keep your mind bothered with something else.
but you went back to square one and you actually care.
turns out they dont care too.
so what youre gonna do now?

hello world, hope you're listening,

2010-04-07T05:39:00.000-07:00

i read my older posts and realised, i changed alot. haha.
my newer posts arent filled with colours anymore,
i dont talk like a brat anymore,
i'm not a kid anymore,
haha.

i blog like, twice a week back then.
now, i'm just too lazy to give two shit about this blog.
lol, sorry.

2010-03-25T07:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes the happiest moments are just there, but we never look back at it cause it didnt last long. good things always come to an end.

i lied down, called it a day and i was thinking of you.. never thought i'd have you in my life. i dont think i can walk this road alone without you. dont think i can go through this without you. i seriously dont knw what i'd be, without you. (:

i've never felt this way before..
(: (: (: (: (:

i dont want to walk this earth if i gotta do it solo.

Shuku shuku.

2010-03-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

HAIIIIIIIIZ.
YOYOZ HOWZ AREZ YOUZ BESTIEZ? :P
And yes, I'm still sangry. :(
Unforgettable, Unforgivable. Nghehehehe.

bitch it. :P

life is wonderful.

2010-03-16T08:06:00.001-07:00

it's nice to be yourself and not give a damn. :D
just goooo with the floooowwww :P

I'm ten miles from town
And I just broke down
Spitting out smoke
On the side of the road
I'm out here alone
Just trying to get home
To tell you I was wrong
But you already know
Believe I won't stop for nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after
Is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
And I think that
All that still matters is the love and the laughter
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

The last time we talked
The night that I walked
Burns like a light
In the back of my mind
I must've been high
To say you and I
Weren't meant to be
An' just wasting my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you
You know, I will die here without you

All that I'm after
Is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
And I think that
All that still matters is the love and the laughter
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong
There's no other one
After this time spent on
Time to believe
That around inside a piece so blinded
Thinkin' all about the times
I must've been out of my mind
So I wonder if I can tell you

All that I'm after
Is a life full of laughter
And now God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after
Is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
And I think that
All that still matters is the love and the laughter
After the life we've been through, yeah
I know there's no life after you

You know there's no life after you
You know there's no life after you
You know there's no life after you
No, no life after you
Yeah

i wanna spend the rest of my life with you,
and only youu. (:

lao kunggggggg

2010-03-12T04:24:00.001-08:00

YESS MY BLOG GILER EMO.

2010-03-12T04:12:00.000-08:00

when i was younger, i used to be easily affected by the littlest things around me. when there's a sudden change in me, i put the blame on something else. well. i was younger.

now i realise, everything little actions i take, means something to someone. it might hurt that person, or that person might feel flattered. but how do we know if we did, hurt that person?

i didn't know what to expect. i think i expected too much from you, i shouldnt have. we all thought you might understand and we thought you were optimistic. i guess things are not as they seem? i have nothing to say. we tried to show you how much we actually do care about you, but whatever happened, is disappointing. i dont think you'll appreciate what we planned out for you. maybe, you won't.

2010-02-20T08:22:00.001-08:00

I have this fear that one day you’ll finally get a good look at me and I’m going to disappoint you because you’ll see that I’m not as strong or as good as you think I am. And I’m afraid that it will change the way you think about me.

2010-02-20T08:10:00.000-08:00

Interviewer: Why can’t you be alone without Yoko?

John Lennon: But I can be alone without Yoko, but I just have no wish to be. There’s no reason on earth why I should be alone without Yoko. There’s nothing more important than our relationship, nothing. And we dig being together all the time. Both of us could… survive apart but what for? I’m not going to sacrifice love, real love for any whore or any friend or any business, because in the end you’re alone at night and neither of us want to be. And you can’t fill a bed with groupies. It doesn’t work. I don’t want to be a swinger. I’ve been through it all and nothing works better than to have someone you love hold you.

found this in eletheowl

so true.

2010-02-20T08:09:00.001-08:00

happy cny.
bye.

2010-02-03T07:15:00.001-08:00

headache la.

2010-02-02T03:18:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I know I can be
So hard to understand
Even when I'm lost
You show me who I really am
Life with me hasn't always been an easy ride
But because of you I've learned
To lose my selfish pride

Even when I'm not giving enough
And I'm taking too much
You're still there for me
Even when I got nothing at all
And I'm ready to fall
You're still there for me
There for me
There for me

you're always there for me.

2010-01-29T04:45:00.000-08:00

Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person; wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong.

i found that person. (:

OHHHHHH.

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile :D

2010-01-13T05:20:00.000-08:00

with all this homework piling up each day, it never stops me from thinking of things that happened around me. i don't wanna take anything or anyone for granted. i regret taking you for granted, sis. i'm sorry. i never knew the feeling of being taken for granted, but i do now. this is not another emo post, nolah :P i just wanna know if i do exist in your life as a friend, or just another friend. i tried to sweep away that feeling but it never seem to work. i thank God for blessing me with a family that i can trust, that i can depend on, that will be there for me no matter what, accept me the way i am, know me more than anyone else even myself. and someone so special in my life (:

i know i'm indecisive.
i don't want anyone to decide for me what i wanna do.
this is my life.
only my family can judge me.

2010-01-13T05:15:00.001-08:00

i am tired. i'm seriously tired.
i need my bed now, but a pile of homework is waiting for me.

2010-01-08T04:52:00.001-08:00

God, please put my mind at ease.

2010-01-02T07:51:00.000-08:00

haaaaa, sorry ):
i'm not a good blogger, why bother visiting my blog you hadahoo? :P
haha sorry.
ive been up to nothing lately.

you are the strength, that keeps me walking.

2010-01-01T05:29:00.000-08:00

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

2009-12-30T06:18:00.000-08:00

it's been so long since i've felt relieved.
but it's never gonna end, right?

2009-12-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

HAIIIIII.
GOOD EVENING SMELLY HUMANOIDS.
FAIZ RADZWIN SAID MY BLOG MATI KATAK.
AND HE SAID IT SCARED HIM.
heheeeee :P

btw,
Happy 5 months lao kung (:
i love you, and you're everything i want you to be (:

forebaaaaaaa :P

2009-12-26T10:42:00.000-08:00

hey to whoever actually reads this shit,

my phone is pissing my butt off.

No netw. coverage.
No access to netw.

so i cant receive messages, call, cant message either, so yeah.
hmm so umm whoever texted me on the 26th/27th i dont think i got your message, lol.

things arent going well.

2009-12-24T20:34:00.000-08:00

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this war
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

You're all i ever wanted but,
life got in my way.

tears wont stop flowing.

You're the closest i got to family. ;)

2009-12-22T10:05:00.000-08:00

Dear bestfriend,

I love you. I swear, idk how i'll survive those three years without you! after all the shitty shitt. :D im glad. :D (via facebook) (LOL) Thank you for everything you've done for me. All the crap you put through with me. Even in class where I always hit your left arm, I hope i'll be able to do that next year and the year next and until we grow old and shrivel up like prunes. And also, hearing me talk and babble about you know who all day long, I never thought I'll have a friend to share EVERYTHING with, until you came along with your mama bush hair and your specs in form 1. :D I'm glad. I really am. :) You're always there to smack my brains when i'm thinking twice about something, and also you're always encouraging me when I'm not gutsy enough. I'm afraid i've to tell you this, but you're gonna have to STICK WITH MELIKE UHU GLU UNTIL WE PART. HAHAHA. If we don't go same class next year, I WILL GO TO YOU AND CRY AND HUG YOU AND WONT LET YOU GO. i really will. :( can't imagine one year without you in class. HAIHHH

I'm sorry for everything wrong thing I've done towards you Tan. The bottle incident :( IM SORRY OKAY. BUT DONT WORRY, can still give birth right? or even pee. :) HEHE.

(L) yan-ee.

FAIZ, don't jealous. HAHAHAHA. kidding. :P now now, dont angrehhh.

2009-12-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

You may not be her first, her last or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze, and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there. 

- Bob Marley

2009-12-21T06:07:00.000-08:00

spend life with who makes you happy, not who you have to impress.

2009-12-21T06:05:00.000-08:00

2009-12-18T09:19:00.000-08:00

Value everything you presently have.
for someday, you might realize that the thing you threw away
might be the very thing you would miss when it's already taken by somebody else.

2009-12-17T22:49:00.000-08:00

YOU NI.
suka only spam my blog. :P

Eh Hubby reminds me of that girl calling youknowwho 'lo kong'
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

-.-

2009-12-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

hiiiii world. (:
yesterday met up with mandaY at sp.
haha she was so pissed, xD
but it was really nice talking to her :P
it's nice patching up with her. (:
chiwei came and we went for Avatar.
nice movie tho, you guys should check it out. :D
nothing much, had tea/dinner with them and chit chatted
nice hanging out with the lovebirds!

haha manda i know you found the right one ;)
heehheeeee

note to hubbyyy ; if you see this meaning youre online!
:D tell me and ill come online kay?

i'll never stop loving you each and every day.

here's to silence that cuts me to the core.

2009-12-15T04:10:00.000-08:00

i miss you so soo much. damnnn, cant survive without you.
i can, but things are so different without you. ):
hmmmmm, i think i should chill and smileeeeeee

i like this song by taylor swift.
nooope, nothing like that happened to me.
lol. i like it because i like it. :P

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye, we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me, were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak, I don’t feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect, now you’re halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest?
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into you’re eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I’m not so sure
So here’s everything coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don’t anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby, I don’t think so, oh oh

Oh back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?

Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby, you said forever and always, yeah

this blog is dull.

it's okay to make it colourful right?

2009-12-13T05:03:00.001-08:00

race is such a big issue, isn't it?

2009-12-06T06:59:00.000-08:00

some bitches will never stop the shit theyre doing.

eh madafaka. what the hell is your fckng problem? seriously? you are like 8 years elder than me. and that shit you are faking is 8 times more childish than a 13 year old drama queen. i personally hate it when someone is bitching about the people i know. especially someone i really care about. you should stop whatever you're doing. as far as i'm concerned, you dont do well in your studies. faking all that shit. put on an innocent smile like as if nothing ever happened. i don't really care at first but it's really getting on my nerves. you should watch out.

i can be a super bitch if i want to.
i can ruin your entire college life.

my advice? back off.

2009-12-05T06:09:00.001-08:00

hello Jiaaaaaaaaan :D hehe.

2009-12-03T23:14:00.000-08:00

faiz radzwin,
i miss you ):

and you've already got me coming undone.

2009-11-19T22:16:00.000-08:00

hello (:

yeah, yesterday went out with clare and her mum.
really nice, and i enjoyed spending time with them. haha.
and yes, we watched 2012. a not bad movie.
damn good movie :D
realistic and nice effects.
a wake up call to all of us humanoids!

btw, i've been hearing two is better than one again and again.
haha damn sweet song.
it always remind me of.. him. (:

ocean eyes.

2009-11-18T02:29:00.000-08:00

things are not what they used to be. i'm not a little girl anymore. i can't be that naughty little girl that breaks things and let my mum clean up the mess. i fall, bleed and i cry. now? things are so different now. i realised i am getting older.

i have to do alot of things on my own, when to make a move, when to be a real bitch, when to be a nice girl. i've learnt alot throughout this whole year. i know who are my true friends, fake friends. i've cried many times, too many times. and it all seemed nothing to me now. bad thing? good thing? i dont know. all i know is i'm stronger now.

dayumm, that was random, isn't it? lol.

Vanilla Twilight.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

i miss you ):

2009-11-09T03:00:00.001-08:00

youuu,
thanks for making me feel better.
and.. for being there. :)

2009-11-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

alright, i get it.
it's your life.
i'm not your true friend.
maybe, never at all.

2009-11-05T06:59:00.000-08:00

i shall shut up and go with the flow.

2009-11-05T01:37:00.001-08:00

TALENT SHOW!
hahaha we got 5th xD
it is considered not bad cause we only had less than one week of practice.
STRANGERS, GOOD JOB! :D
i don't really care about winning. you guys were brave okay, to pull out all your guts to dance on stage. not everyone can do that (: haha. i can feel you guys dancing your heart out even when i'm standing right err in front lol. it felt good :D

BOUNCE :P

2009-11-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

eeeeee you!

2009-10-30T05:55:00.000-07:00

i like the way you laugh.
i like it when you do funny faces.
your chubby face, so adorable!
and when you sing, i can't help but giggle. :P
the way you care too much about things.
ahhh, my faiz. haha.
the way you hug me even when i'm sweaty and well, busuk.
when i'm down you make funny sounds.
silly but you always make me smile when you do that. (:
the way you make my heart beats faster than normal.
gosh, how'd you do that?

i like everything about you,
i love you. (:
no matter what.

forever, baby.

2009-10-30T05:54:00.001-07:00

oh madaaaa.
muscle cramp ):

wooohooo.

2009-10-27T23:57:00.000-07:00

hello world. :D

FAIZ RADZWIN.
youuuuuuuu,
are ahmazingg. (: haha.
i love you, you know that? :P

Happy Anniversaryy! (:

2009-10-25T20:20:00.001-07:00

I'm fucking bored.

2009-10-22T03:41:00.001-07:00

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground
You take me away
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier Crazier

crazier, taylor swift.

2009-10-22T03:03:00.000-07:00

I should be enjoying after pmr.
I should be doing whatever i want everyday after pmr.
It still feels the same.
I can never untie that burden I've been carrying.
Freedom? What shit is that.
Totally not in my dictionary.
never will be.

I don't have a choice.
This is how it is supposed to be and there's nothing i can do.

2009-10-21T02:26:00.000-07:00

Slow down make it last
I’m having the time of my life
And take a photograph
I don’t wanna leave this behind
What seemed so out of reach
We’re holding it right in our hands
Let’s give up everything

Let’s jump in and never look back

This is all I ever wanted
But life got in my way
You’re all I ever wanted
I didn’t see how it could change
That something was missing until today

The city comes alive
As soon as you walk through the door
Another sleepless night
But I don’t wanna sleep anymore
I don’t wanna sleep anymore

This is all I ever wanted
But life got in my way
You’re all I ever wanted
I didn’t see how it could change
That something was missing until today

Climbing so high
Just don’t look down
We can see everything from here
For once in my life
Feet off the ground
I don’t wanna come back down

So take a photograph
We’re having the time of our life

This is all I ever wanted
But life got in my way
You’re all I ever wanted
I didn’t see how it could change
This is all I ever wanted
Nothing will get in the way
You’re all I ever wanted
I knew that somehow it could change
I didn’t know what I was missing until… today

2009-10-21T02:18:00.001-07:00

our song is the way he laughs
the first date man, i didn't kiss him and i should have
and when i got home, 'fore i said amen
asking God if he could play it again.

there's someone i've been missing..

2009-10-19T06:46:00.000-07:00

boobahbah.
thats us looking like ballooons. (:
prev's masterpiece on a piece of cardboard haha.

and errr..

BRING ME OUTTTTTT.

2009-10-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

love you guys.. so so so so much (:

You can.

2009-10-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait

2009-10-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

It's really depressing when you try to make everything look perfectly fine and at the end of the day it still turn out like shit.

suckish feeling.

2009-10-13T07:22:00.001-07:00

PMR IS FINALLY OVER! :D

2009-09-25T20:50:00.000-07:00

hi haha :P

will be back after pmr. (:

2009-09-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

hiii (:
sorry my blog has been really dead.
ahh, dunno what to post about.
wait till i know what to post about kay? haha :P

ps. sorry about last night. ):

your lips are like wine and i wanna get drunk. :P

2009-08-27T00:18:00.000-07:00

hello people (:

this is faiz. :P

sepet xP

ahh you, yes you in the picture. :P you make me laugh even when youre down. you'll do anything, i mean anything just to make me happy. you make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time, gosh i have no idea how you can do that. you keep me up when im down, you keep me warm when im cold, you keep me happy when im sad. you keep me alive. (:

Faiz Radzwin,
Happy 1st month Anniversary. (:

love drunk.

2009-08-21T03:01:00.000-07:00

Hello! Trials' over! :D

got my geo and mathspaper2 result and it sucked lah. i admit i didnt study much this time. hmm well. :| pmr's coming. this is not the end. aiyarrrr. today was a good day! i got 1buck from pnkoh. she asked me to buy icecream for myself. O.o

shit i dunno what to say. :O

we are all a little weird.
and life's a little weird.
and when we find someone
whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them
and fall in mutual weirdness
and call it love. <3
ahh, so weird. xD

2009-08-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

hello world.

boring day, as usual. skipped school. miss the pkm's. miss everything in school.
woke up at 9-ish am and straight to my books. no wait, breakfast then books. lol.
then had lunch, then continue.
nap, watched this movie. then dinner.
then tuition.
and now im here.
blogging.

sorry humanoids, just distracted.
and i wanna keep you updated with whats happening in my life.
so yeah.
boring post, i know.
i dont care anyway. bye.

BLOOM

2009-07-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

WEEEEEE. :D
so happy so happy. :D
27th July. :D

shit. unfinished geo work.
byee!

shits.

2009-07-26T06:17:00.000-07:00

hello world :)

Today sucked. Seriously.
But everything turned out right at the end of the day anyway. :)

today was just like every Sunday. blehh. went for the 8.30am mass, then went for sunday school. didnt know we were supposed to combine class, so was feeling daamn sesat. then Alena and Sam came after that. watched two movies, long road home and the day god died. damn weird old movies. lol. didnt get a single thing wei. was freaking cold and sleepy. after sunday school Alena told me she wanna marry me cause i'm extremely sexy. lol. damn random that girl. then went for brunch in a noodle shop. after that tapau-ed for dad and went home. then after all that shit, went for dinner in kuchai lama. STEAMBOAT :D in 100 degree celcius. damn cun that place. food also cun. when the bill come. our eyes all popped out. lol. whatever, then something happened again, and now im blogging. :D

boring post, ey? hmm yeah. boring day ma. lol.

anyway,
amanda and faiz, you guys made me feel soo much better.
thanks :)

fR, fR, aku sukakk luu. (:

you and i.

2009-07-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

Why Don't You and I

Since the moment I spotted you,
Like walking around with little wings on my shoes,
My stomach's filled with the butterflies,

Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I'd got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied,

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take,
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around,

Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied.

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

Slowly I begin to realize,
This is never going to end
Right about the same time you walk by,
And I say 'Oh here we go again',
Oh!

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

So I'll say why don't You and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say you why don't You and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

by Santana and Chad Kroeger.

This is all happening too fast.

this shit.

2009-07-24T04:00:00.000-07:00

Dayum. Regretted for buying that W910i man! This phone really gets on my nerve. Seriously. It turns off by itself. Laggish, ahhh damn annoying. Texting is like a big problem to me now. Halfway texting itll turn off by itself. I have to re-type the message after that. Pretty annoying hor?

So I was thinking of getting a new phone :D
Recommend please? (:

2009-07-24T03:08:00.000-07:00

I don't understand. What look did I gave? What did I say?
I wasn't really sure who did it. And I wasn't mad.
Confused wei.

Three words. What the hell? O.o

2009-07-23T07:26:00.001-07:00

Dammit wei. Shoulda went and topup! Dammit dammit.

I'm sorry i didnt reply your messages. Sorry i was busy. Sorry i talked to you like that. Sorry. ):

2009-07-20T05:26:00.001-07:00

I regretted whatever I did. I wasnt thinking straight. Totally lost my conscience at that moment. I know I cannot take back my words. All I have to do now is, move on? I guess so. And I hope I can. What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I here, talking about this shit? Fck.

You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line
If I said "I miss you"?

this is a reaaaally short post.

2009-07-14T02:14:00.000-07:00

helloo (:
went out with fR. haha. that guy ahh, damn funny wei. xD
and don't poke me anymore. please. lol.

anyway, school was good today.
was damn sick. but i managed to get through the day, so it was all fine.

i'm picked for the maths quiz. ohh die laa. thank you so much for picking me lah you ketot. -.-

kick me in.

2009-07-10T00:12:00.000-07:00

hello. (: it's been so long. haha. lemme update a lil.

i've been feeling better lately. thanks to the pkm (: you guys always make my day. hey, the sampats too. i dunno what would my school life be without you guys, man. haha. :D

i'm no longer the asst monitor. a treasurer now. haha. swapped with veno. thanks for pushing all the money to me lah veno. pressure wei. lol.
school was good today, we played FOOTBALL. barefooted. XD
there were 7 of us and i was the only RED. so i had to be the goalkeeper. -.-
but i played with them as well, lol. leaving the goal goalkeeperless. XD
so practically everyone get to score. haha.
and we all SUCK on the field man, XD especially shy. all kaki bangku. haha.
SHY, stop being such a blond la. kena the ball only wanna cry ady. lol!
and clare accidentally kicked the ball to my head.
luckily nothing happened to my head. or nott, mampus you ah clare!
nahhh, just kidding x)

after school, i wanted to stay back to see EVA getting installed! :D
but something happened and i changed my mind. :P
luckily manda was there, she had to go out with someone. (:
SOMEONE, long time no see! :D you better pay back my 10 bucks.
kidding lah, haha. then reached home, my mum was shocked to see me.
cause she thought i was supposed to stay back.
so now, i'm here, blogging. :D
anyway, i gotta go. bonding bonding with my dad. (:
bye, readers. (:

2009-07-03T02:25:00.000-07:00

really, really hard to let go.

ta.

2009-06-28T08:25:00.001-07:00

BAND CONCERT WAS AWESOME.

bye.

2009-06-18T00:56:00.001-07:00

I'm messed up. Screwed up. Everyone is moving forward yet i'm still left behind. I suck. Really.
I needa change. Into a better me.

I guess i just gotta suck it in and accept that i'm worse than what i think i am.

2009-06-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

I'M SO EFFING DEAD.
i havent even start the essay.

shit.

2009-06-04T03:52:00.001-07:00

past. i hate it.

trippin'

2009-06-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

hello.
have been up to lotsa hoohaa lately. whadever laaaa.

went for Cheryl's church concert on Saturday. it was ohsoawesome weeii. cun cun. if they are having this next year, im soo coming!

reached clare's house. i thought i was the earliest. o.O haha. we talked about my special day. sooo special. -.- creepy stories session. its actually a really baaaad idea. haha. cause we were all freaked out after that and we were all quiet on our way there. lol. reached Cheryl's church and we were the earliesttt. cun leh. first time im the earliest. :D we sat on the floor and chit chatted. made new friends til the concert starts.

it was AWESOME. Jenny was super hyper. the youngest is always the most supporting one. haha :D and Clare keep complaining about thaaaat fella. EH dude, stop staring lah. damn annoying wei. you annoy her then she annoys me. dont play domino please. lol. the pastor's story made me tear a little. yeah i teared. his life was sad and yet he's still standing still, telling us his story. he is THE MAN lah.

so i took a few pics. we were all sweating. lol.

we went yumcha! haha Jenny you damn funny. a smaller version of Esther. HAHA. damn cute lah. come la let's go yumcha next time. only both of us. that day damn noisy. KK? :D

tooot.

2009-05-30T20:48:00.000-07:00

yawwwww.

tiring nights wei. lol. Friday, went Shogun with Clare and Eva. thanks aunty thanks uncle! sedap la! :D lazy to elaborate. so lets get to the pics.

picture of the week ;

sorry, really lazy to elaborate. gotta chao. bye. :)

dang.

2009-05-26T08:56:00.001-07:00

ahahaha. :D

HI. :) My name is Jane and I like my Goofy pose.
I'm awesome, you can't deny.
I love the way I am - Goofy. :D

2009-05-26T07:20:00.001-07:00

HI, currently finishing my Sejarah folio.
ahhh it's killing meeee x.x

2009-05-25T07:51:00.000-07:00

so right.
Clare is such an awesome person la kay.
she damn awesome. she did the blog for me.
although quite cacat right. still she did it for me.
omg la, shes such an awesome person.
she rocks my smelly socks. :D
and then the header is like so cunted seh. :)
like rockstar only. haha.

okay la, you know this is Clare.
Jane not that dramatic. :p

you know you love me Jane.
you better do.
haaah. byebyee. xD

just get back up when it knocks you down.

2009-05-25T06:19:00.000-07:00

UGH. WOMAN.
i know what i want and that's not what i want!
i DONT fcking want this.
I'm sick of all this crap.
Thanks for creating a NEW impression of me.
I'm not what you guys think and just fcking stop doing what you're doing!
Even if i wanna go for it,
it's really none of your business.
I know you have a good intention but,
i don't see anything good about this.
Please.
Stop.